Its been a while...

Wring wring
the telephone cord
umbilical cord
connection
sustenance
wring wring
reach out
place a call
place that call
remember
on the other end is love

a meal...

take a slice of life
eat it up
dulls the hunger
but not enough to satisfy
bite off more then you can chew
then choke
but this meal is not for me
it is rotten
bitter
i starve myself
life is for the weak
for me there is deaths

desert...

the desert
dry, barren
drastic changes
warm and bright
the dull darkness can be dangerous
unexpected threats
minimalist survival
uninviting
few pass this way
those who do, hesitate
be prepared
know what you get yourself into
it doesn't know when it's coming
lashing out
a storm turns the desert upside down
it passes
it has changed
volatile
but the desert remains

there is only the world...

no map, no compass, no signs
fumbled around the world
the red woods made me feel small
the pyramids made me feel insignificant
the great wall made me feel unguarded
the oceans made me feel shallow
armies of children, Auschwitz, Chernobyl, Hiroshima
i knew there was no god

empty...

leech my life away
you bitch
suck my dreams
as they begin to form in front of my eyes
gnaw my bones to stop me from growing
claw at my mind
stealing my memories
tare
rip
slice
my very soul away
you left me an empty vessel
and you blame me for everything

Mania and Dilutions...

I climbed a mountain
That walking on water feeling
The power
The strength
The mania

I made the river red
I parted the sea
The power
The strength
The mania

I cured cancer
I won the Nobel Prize
The power
The strength
The mania

I pressed the button
I dropped the bomb
The power
The strength
The mania

I created the Earth, light, everything
On the 7th day I rested
The power
The strength
The mania

At either end...

As a child I crawled into a culvert
I went into the tunnel
After a while it grew dark
The stones bruised my hands and knees
The water chilled me
It wasn't until then that I realized
What it was like to be alone
That I was alone
The day still sticks with me
When I have time to think
I am in that tunnel again
Alone
A small spot of light at either end
It's impossible to turn around
So I go forward
And hope that when this ends
I won't be alone

Memorial...

in the park stands a memorial
not proud, not meager, but forgotten
sheltered from the world
a figure rides astride a horse
rearing
fallen in battle and misunderstood
the orders given to protect
were warped before they reached the ears of the followers
prejudiced, they destroy
fallen but they fight in the name
but they forget
the memorial is forgotten
on it is a plaque and there it is written
here lies God

The Library...

All the world is a library

And we are all books

Or so you seem to think

You walk around to the places that interest you

Home improvement

Philosophy

Fantasy

You look at the books as you pass by

And sometimes one grabs you eye

The title

The look

Pick it up

Read the dust cover

Find out what it is about

After a bit you might even open it up 

See what's under the cover

In the pages here and there

And when you find one that suits 

You take it home

But not for long

When you are done you take it back

You keep looking

For another book

Life..

The Great Hill

When you start the view is amazing

And the world seems so big

As you begin to go down the hill 

You encounter bumps and small stones

They throw you off

But the wind on your face lets you know you're alive

After a bit you get use to the speed

And you want more

You peddle faster

Look at you go

But take care

Not too fast or you will miss it

You go off jumps

Tricks that once seemed difficult

Are now performed with ease

Too busy with what you are doing

Don't forget about the world

Too late

Too fast

Half way down already

You don't notice the view

The road is your focus

The rut you are in

The home stretch

It seemed so smooth from the top

It seemed so easy

But you notice every bump

You are sore

Near the end

The hill seemed so big

But it's gone now

And you just taste the ground

A key...

Just because I can come and go

Doesn't mean I am free to leave

A prison without bars they say

You are on the other side

But I am the one who counts the days

You have distractions

And I have these walls

There are windows though from which I can see the world

But it doesn't pass me by

There are things to do here but I can't

Waiting to see what you are doing

Plan my life around your day

And you seem to sense it

When I stop thinking and start doing

You call

God damn them all...

I was told
Opposing views
Opinions biased
Advice turning me astray
Guidance leading to disaster

You deceitful bastards
Betray my faith
But deceive me no longer

Grit my teeth
Bite the lip
Blood drips as I
Take responsibility

Mislaid
I have made mistakes
But I am lost no longer

Connect...

Sing
Sing out loud
Scream
And let yourself be heard

Fight
Out of this box
Burst
Into the world again

Stand
Up to the ones
Who
Trample down
Dreams

Do more
Then shake your fist
Shake up
Institutions

Connect
With your garbageman
The business woman on the bus
Squeegee kids on the street
The old man struggling to climb the stairs

Let yourself show
Creativity comes from the heart
You can't be happy all the time
But damn close
If you allow yourself to be human

From the depths of hell I stab at my self...

On your belly
"Crawl, crawl fucker"
He tastes my boot
As I condemn
His actions
His deeds
I punish him for his crimes

In the corner...

In your corner
Your designated place
You create worlds
Paint your mind
With brilliant colours
Outside the lines
Tracing the soft tissues
Your finger penetrates
And leads you down
Into the depths
Your dark places
The images here are matte
Absorbing all light
You fumble around
On your hand and knees
The ground is sharp
Stones from the past
Cut your hands
The brambles and nettles
Prick your heart
A voice unequivocal but remote
Comes to your ears
A song
Lifting you up
Out of the dangers of your past
Out of the darkness that you hide
In your corner
Your designated place

Regeneration...

Burnt

The smell

Like charred hair and flesh

My soul

Is black and shriveled 

Too often

Have I let another

Dictate

My destiny 

Hide

Hermitage 

Like a forest

Let the fire

Make way for new growth

New buds 

Are sprouting 

And

Its Spring

Again

Future...

Space

To help

Get use to

When I am gone

Afraid

To be apart

To grow apart

Afraid 

To be together

To take

Her uniqueness

For granted

Her love

Assumed

Distanced from her

But not from her love

The knowledge 

That we will be together

Again

In the scope

It is but a moment

Apart

But we have 

Eternity

Missing you...

I just turned and walked away
Fool!
You fool!
If you had just asked her to hold you she might have
Step after step
Down the stairs

The night seems cold
As I get in my car
I realize we need this
But my mind keeps racing

Drive
Just drive
I go in search for I know not what
I know now
I was looking for the place
It might have been the first time I realized
I love her

Our field
Over looking all
Everything was so fresh then
Now I can't seem to find it
The darkness clouds my memory

I drive
In search for sleep
But find only my thoughts
They give me little comfort
Except
Maybe
Tomorrow I might ask her to hold me once more

Alter...

Struggle
struggle
overcome

Change your colours
the texture of your thoughts
they are no longer synthetic
natural

not disheartened
not ashamed
actions speak louder
no words spoke
just a tender touch
your soul warmed over

hinder yourself no longer
give up your inhibitions
give up the barrier that holds you back
and gain the world

In The Night...

Beat to death
sleeping on a bench
the nation's best
hired to protect
mercilessly
destroyed

The woman
a witness
taken within an inch

The men
young
will they pay for the crime
or be free
to blot out another